First I’d like to thank Jesus for bringing me where I am today. When I first got to Hope for Her I was broken, hopeless, and the maddest I’ve ever been at God. I’ve been battling a drug addiction for 10+ years. Well, at the time I didn’t think I was battling anything – I thought I had everything under control until I didn’t. My whole world as I knew it fell apart. I was living in a hotel with my kids worrying every day about tomorrow. On February 1st I overdosed in front of my kids, went to jail, and obviously lost my kids. Mind you, all first times for me but if you know me then you know I have to hit rock bottom with a bang. The paramedics said I was out for 15 minutes and got hit with Narcan five times and was lucky to be alive.

Looking back now I know it had nothing to do with being lucky and everything to do with God having a bigger plan for my life. I spent three days in jail, got out and continued on the path of destruction for three more months, waking up every day wondering why God saved me and just wishing He would end it. I knew something had to happen just didn’t know what. I was stripped of the only identity I knew (being a mother) and was completely lost.

Then everything changed for me when I got a call from Inspiration with a woman asking me why I wanted to come to the grace house and my answer was I was tired and I no longer wanted the life I’ve lived for so long. She then said “I hope you’re ready for Jesus because you’re going to get a lot of Him.” For the first month I was lost and still mad at God. I have a relationship with God that I never knew was possible. He’s rebuilding me into the person I’ve always wanted to be, showing me more grace then I know what to do with. I now have a job I love, my driver’s license, and most importantly rebuilding my relationship with my kids. 

I no longer feel broken or hopeless but thankful for everyday that He wakes me up to be better than the day before. I’m surrounded by people who love me and want nothing but the best for me. So, for anyone who feels like there’s no light at the end of the tunnel just know that with God and an amazing support system there will always be light, even if you can’t see it at the time.